Punishment Already...

Hello, today is my first posting on my Master's blog. I don't believe I write especially well so I apologise now for any errors or bad writing style. I have been chatting to Master J for a while and admit that I hold him in great esteem already despite not having met yet. We have spoken about my servitude and it had become apparent with more correspondance that I realise he is very suited to the kind of Master I want and indeed how I wish my life to become, with him my master and me his slave.

I want to talk about my first failings as his slave, of which I am certainly not proud but have to admit I was more than slightly turned on by the consequences albeit very humiliating. I had been going comando as directed for numerous days to help me to realise my slavery, which had been working very well and I had enjoyed the heightened sense of control and possession. That was until this morning when I got dressed in a hurry and left for work wearing pants. I arrived at work without a thought about what I had done, and then it was only when I began chatting with Master when I realised I had made a mistake. He asked me if I was commando, which of course I wasn't and have always been honest with him so I had to admit I had forgotten this morning. He then ordered my immediately into the toilets where I was told I had to take my pants off, wank into my them and put them in my pocket so that the smell would be with me all day and I would remember the error of my ways. I did this as instructed and it was only about 30 mins before I started to smell that obvious and somewhat sweet smell begin to vaporise my general space in the office. I become paranoid that people around me could also smell it - maybe they could? I remained obedient however and kept the pants in my pocket all day. It is only now that I have returned home that I have been allowed to take them out of my pocket.

I found the smell of the semen seeping up from my shorts pocket very horny all day, so was in a heightened state of arousal all day despite having came early. I think this along with the smell ensured I didn't forget why I had wet semen stained pants in my pocket. I was bad and I was duly punished. Thank you Master.

Crossroads

I am at a crossroads.

Soon My partner - vanilla - will arrive, which means that My interest in kink may suffer. G is moving up from Birmingham, and this is happening at an awkward moment for the Household. It is intended that we will live together as we have done in the past, but the independent sexual element may well be compromised.

In spite of loving G very much, I do want a boi to use and keep around the house, so how I am going to marry the two is unclear. As time goes by, I find Myself more and more attracted to 951, so much so that I am going to collar him from afar - the more we talk, the more I like him. I have invited him to blog, to share his thoughts. Yes, that's right - on 24.07.2007 luke became 398-136-951, so another milestone was passed. He's not sure whether he likes the idea, but he does like the concept of a new identity. I think that all slaves should have a new identity when travelling this path, because it enables them to live in the vanilla world as Joe Bloggs, and in the kinky environment as 123 - each with their own rights and responsibilities.

I find Myself referring to him by name, which is not a good sign though. I have not yet made the boi chris numeralise, but then I am inordinately fond of him as well.

I intend having 951 travel up this weekend, so if it is successful - in terms of both the arrangement and the experience, it should provide an inkling of the way forward. I like his attitude, and I like his intelligence.

951 is not without his problems, however. he had to be corrected today because he foolishly forgot that he is under consideration, and as such, under My control and instruction. he forgot that he was under strict instructions to remain without underwear to remind him of who's boss, and this morning disobeyed that simple instruction while dressing for work. I had to have him go to the loo there and remove them instantly - after cumming in them while I listened. Not an entire waste of the precious fluid, for I had him stuff the cum-impregnated clothing into his pocket so that, in time, the aura of cum would reach his nostrils and be a reminder that instructions are to be obeyed. he did well, and according to the latest text message received, his new deodorant had arrived! he was not sure whether he was being paranoid or not, but either way the desired effect was reached. And I'm sure it was fun, trying to be quiet in the work's public lavatory while working one's tool. I hope someone walked in, it would have heightened the humiliation. And so we learn. Isn't learning fun? I expect he'll have his own take on it this evening, which I look forward to reading tonight when I return from the boat.

The issue of the survival of the Household is one that is going to be addressed over the next few weeks. I don't think that G is suited to monogamy, and I think that a concordat is going to have to be reached.

The Chain Has Arrived

While looking for items for the ongoing boat restoration project, I found a site that sells stainless steel chain - the pup reported that his chain was irritating him, so I needed to find an alternative. The chain which I now use is 3mm shortlink marine grade stainless steel. I ordered enough for several collars, so yesterday I made up an experimental chain collar which you can see above. I am currently test-driving it for feel, comfort, and weight. I want the weight of ownership to be a constant companion around the neck of the owned boi, because it will remind him of who his owner is and provide an anchor and a place of safety. I think that this collar is quite appropriate in terms of durability and effect, but have yet to shower with it on. It will be a dramatic and more positive improvement over anything else I've used before.

The boi chris is going to need a chain collar, as is the new london slave luke. He is learning discipline at the moment, having been commando for the last few days. We have been chatting for a while, and he is expected to be numbered soon.

There is another boi who is interested and who has expressed a desire to serve: 327-159-693. He lives locally, and it is My intention to have him very soon, possibly within the week if things go well. More chain. We have been chatting, and he explained how he has always wanted to be dominated and controlled. He is one of the few bois who has made it his business to do some research. he found the numbers on the gaydar profile intriguing, so he went and found this blog and liked it. At the moment things are still fluid, but we shall see how they develop. his has been an interesting journey, having fantasised about captivity and bdsm for many years, throughout puberty and now is keen to try being used and owned, mainly because he is not sure whether it is all just something to wank over, or whether he'd enjoy the experience enough to want to do it again. We shall see when we meet.

I intend giving both luke and 693 rights to blog here, so it will be interesing to see their thoughts expressed for the benefit of the other members of the Household.

I am not too happy that the pup's schedule and Mine are diverging, but I note what he has written below, and expect to use him soon.

I am fortunate in that there is a constant chat going on with various bois who are interested, which means that the reality of having two or more bois to serve simultaneously moves closer. Ideally, I want an alpha, but that will happen in time.

There is a boi in Birmingham who wants to be kidnapped and to disappear - he is chatting to Me at the moment - and although I like the idea, I am not about to commit a crime to satisfy his fantasy. He wants to spend time in servitude, but I am not sure whether he is a timewaster or not yet, so I have told him to get up here and to come and spend a week in service. We shall see just how serious he is.

Well its been a while since i sat down to do anything for myself let alone write but here we are i find a mild lull in the hectic life i lead. So what do i say? well ive finished with uni now, so its time to settle down and find some time to drop in on Him. sorry this is only a brief entry i'll up date properly when i get some time too, hopefully back in my cage.

Look what I found!

Went to see "Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix" on Friday last with the boi chris and Lee C. I'd heard that Daniel Radcliffe had been in "Equus", so of course I went to look for pics. I am sure there are more somewhere in cyberspace. But here's a nice shot.

chris - always a willing cadet

I was very glad - and remain so - that the boi chris decided to come up for the weekend, especially as illness prevented his arrival the previous weekend. I was not sure whether we'd end up in the correct context, nor was I sure that we'd even share a bed, but I was happy to see him arrive on Friday last.

He'd changed greatly since our last meeting, which was in the professional context. He's become much more self-assured and confident and, dare I say it - happier - since then, since he's been able to come out and to view the world through pink-tinted spectacles, which is always a refreshing change.

I was very curious to see the piercing, which was very much the centre of gossip whenever his name was brought up by his colleagues. I was not sure whether I'd like it, but having used this boi, I have found it quite pleasant and in no way offensive. It was a bit awkward in the mouth - I like to have something nice to suck - but I found it erotic.

chris is uncut, and his foreskin is pleasingly attractive, being able to be retracted fully as can be seen from the picture below, and is hence hygienic and acceptable to Me. The piercing helps, and his penis looks quite attractive when flaccid, with just the gleam of steel showing through the foreskin.

I think chris would be very happy as an owned boi.

He is a loving, kind, compassionate, obedient, responsive person who will be a good boi, who needs to belong. He will also thrive with a good Master who can nurture him and allow him to grow as an individual. He is sexy, good as meeting a Master's sexual needs, is willing to experiment - within reason - and is capable of lots of hot fun. And he is a very, very nice guy.

He was given the choice of bed to sleep in, and came to Mine. A night of passion followed, mainly vanilla - but with bits of kink thrown in. He is not sure whether he likes tit torture, but he enjoyed everything else. He enjoyed the feeling of the ankle restraints, and the general domination.

The next morning we worked on the boat, and did the dinner party in the evening. What really struck Me was how chris thinks ahead - he helped with the setting up, and when I went for more victuals, he cleaned up the bathroom (like a good slave would), prepared for the guests, and actively contributed towards a successful evening.

And he was great in bed afterwards. So I collared him.

He loves the collar. We discussed the symbolism the next day, and I am going to take ownership of him on a part-time basis. I think he thinks it kind of wierd, but I think he's attracted to the idea.

So we'll see how it goes. I want him to continue his involvement in the boat project, and if we can marry the two interests, so much the better.

An Old But New Boi

An old friend has just become the latest boi to be considered for a part-time ownership within the Household. He came and spent the weekend with Me, and before he knew what was happening, he was being introduced to the kinkier side of things. He is the boi chris, and this is the first of what I hope are many visits. He wore My collar for part of the weekend, which he enjoyed, and we are about to embark on a journey of discovery together.

I had wanted him to meet the pup Fang, but there were complications. I intend having them both here together, because it will be fun. I also think they will get on together. I will chat more later, but I wanted him to see that I have added him to the Household, so that by the time he gets home he'll be pleasantly surprised when he logs on!

The Holidays Beckon

Spoke with the Wirral boi who is now 995-143-369, and who is intending to visit soon. The sooner, the better. I am looking forward to a session similar to 307, playing with humbler and tealights. He has travel problems, but as soon as he is mobile I want him to spend some time here.

Another development is chatting once more to slavejim, who is still interested in ownership - and I am still very interested in owning him. We chatted at length for a while about a year ago now, and I sent him id tags - which he says he sometimes wears. He has a cb3000, and I want to be his keyholder, which could be fun.

And, as happens, I was approached out of the blue by an 18 year old in Dublin for a week long session of service at the end of July - but he might be a waster, so we'll see what happens.

The holidays are now upon Me, so I am once more available to meet bois during the week, so I am looking forward to an interesting time of pain and pleasure, fun and fellowship... do you hear that, 307? Heartfang?

New potential

Well, it has been quite a while since last I posted, and since then things have been quite hectic at work and so there has not been much in the way of action with bois - more's the pity. I have however, been chatting with a nineteen year old boi called Al - who has yet to learn the proper etiquette - who is interested in a session. I have grown to look forward to his message alerting Me to his presence on msn, and I anticipate meeting him in the near future. He wants to do a scene with Heartfang, whom I am expecting this month. Perhaps the two will coincide, perhaps not.

The chat to Nick of the Wirral area continues, and yesterday morning I had him cum for Me and send the pic (see above) for My enjoyment. He is doing quite well, and I am looking forward to using him soon, with any luck, next weekend. He wants to be totally controlled when he is here, so I am planning a session for him along the lines I have done for 307's first visit. He does not like the idea of being gagged and blindfolded together, so that will be an interesting avenue to explore.

I have also been chatting to the sub matthew, as well as to a new boi from Chester who wants to be controlled remotely. He will be 884, and he is now going commando as instructed. He will be invited to blog on a regular basis.

So it is all go! The work on the boat is taking a lot of My time (and resources) so opportunity for fun is limited. I had to disappoint 307 the other day, so I will have to accommodate him soon, too. I go on leave in about a week, so we'll see what can be arranged.